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Who is Your Isaac?

24 Jul

I looked through some old files and came across something I wrote back in 2009 which became relevant again, given some changes that will be coming soon.  In the face all this uncertainty, all I can hope for is that God’s hand to guide me in the right direction. Amen.

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Who is Your Isaac?

I met up with a friend recently and found out he’s been having some personal problems, particularly with a girl he’s in love with. He said he kept praying, trying to find the answer he sought until one time, he was absolutely CERTAIN of God’s message. He said God told him: 

 

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She is your Isaac.

I swear, that statement left me momentarily speechless. He had already continued talking and I was still digesting that statement 🙂 Simple as it was, it meant so much if you knew the story of Isaac. Abraham, a faithful follower of God, had only one son. Isaac. At one point, God instructed him: “Take now your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love so greatly, and…offer him for a burnt-offering to me.” And Abraham obeyed. He prepared all that was needed for a sacrifice and was just about to run a knife through his own son when an angel appeared, stopped him, and said “Now I know that you love God more than you love your only son, and that you are obedient to God…”

That Abraham could give up something so precious to him without question, as difficult as it was, showed his complete and unflinching trust in God. My friend’s faith is something I’ve always admired but he did say this particular message was not easy to take since he was being asked to give up someone he loved, and possibly might lose for good. But I told him if it’s something God wills, He WILL find a way to put her back in your life. He liked that 🙂

So Who (or What) is YOUR Isaac? Did you ever have to give up someone or something you desperately wanted to hold on to because you somehow felt it wasn’t the right person or thing for you at that time? Making the decision can be quite easy at times, really. It’s sticking to the decision that becomes challenging. That you relapse and gravitate again towards that thing, person or habit despite telling yourself you won’t is oh so common, ei? And this is when the strength of the will is tested.

I think one’s ability to let go despite the initial unwillingness depends greatly on the depth of our trust in God and the belief that He is preparing you for something better. He may take something or someone important to you now, but will give you something or someone even better in His own time. Isn’t that something we should all look forward to? 🙂

Below is something “angel girl” (she can see angels, seriously!) sent late last year. Not sure if it’s an original composition, but the message is beautiful, nonetheless.

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we love we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns. Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the other person to grow, but never too far to feel the love deep within your being.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his OWN happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all fears, bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength and weaken your faith and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may have found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just friendship, or the feelings he or she might have for you is just too far from how you love that person in return. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don’t have to be bitter on love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.

Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn’t mean that you failed in love. Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive, no past so bitter that love cannot accept, and no love so little that we cannot start all over with. When you lose someone and you think you were the one who loved more between the two of you… he lost more. For someday you can love someone the way that you loved him. But he will never be loved again the way that you did.

Wait for Me

16 May

The other day, I once again heard Rebecca St. James’ song Wait for Me. The first time I heard this song was sometime in 2006 when Sepie gave me a CD by St. James containing this song, and a book of the same title. I fell in love with the song’s message of waiting and praying for that one person, who the singer hopes to meet someday.

Listening to it, one can’t help but feel hopeful and excited for the time when you do meet/ recognize that one person meant for you. I’ve had my fair share of admirers and I have to admit that I’ve met some pretty awesome guys in the past. Thing was, I was emotionally immature then and did not want to commit no matter how many people told me I already had a great thing right in front of me. Stubborn was my middle name (and to a certain degree, still is).

 Nowadays, there is greater pressure especially from family members, to find someone and marry. “There’s no old maid in our family!” (yeah well, there’s always a first). Thankfully, they haven’t pestered me mercilessly about it. I know they mean well, but falling in love is something you just cannot force no matter how much you want to.  Well, you can actually, but sometimes the results are disastrous.

 I believe falling in love happens involuntarily, which could be either be immediate or happen over a long period of time. However, it’s committing to someone that is a voluntary, conscious decision well within one’s control. You can choose NOT to commit to someone you do love and you can also choose to commit to someone you DO NOT LOVE at all for your own reasons, unfortunate though that may sound.

 I can sincerely say I am happy being single and my life is a testament to how good the single life can be. I’d sometimes tell myself sometimes that it’s better to be single than to wish you were.  (Off-topic: Btw, there’s no harm in investing in a good retirement plan this early).  However, there is still that thought of finding someone to be with forever – happily. (I’m still gonna need a good retirement plan, regardless).  If that person doesn’t come, I’m still fortunate to have a large pool of friends who are able to say yes to an invitation for dinner, a trip, or just some good conversation at the drop of a hat.

One of the close circle of friends I regularly get together with consists of about seven people. And I was surprised to realize one day that ALL of us were single.  We were taking Singles for Christ (the organization where I met most of them) way too literally 🙂  Plus I have several friends from high school, college, and work who are still unattached. I mean, these are smart, interesting, funny, God-fearing, beautiful men and women that I’m talking about (I’m not being biased) and it baffles me why no one has been lucky enough to nab them. I’m not saying we can’t be happy the way we are, because we are. I just think some people out there would be VERY fortunate if they ended up with any of these fantastic people I know (to my friends in happy, fulfilling relationships, I hope your respective partners don’t let go of the great thing that they have). 

I could simply be rationalizing, or maybe I’m enlightened, when I say that maybe God just wants us to believe what Rebecca St. James is saying:  Wait. And live life as beautifully as you can, while you’re at it.
 
 

Darling, did you know that I
I dream about you
Waiting for the look in your eyes
When we meet for the first time

 And darling, did you know that I
I pray about you
Praying that you will hold on
And keep your loving eyes only for me

CHORUS:
‘Cause I am waiting for, praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
‘Cause I am waiting for, praying for you darling
Wait for me too
Wait for me as I wait for you
Darling wait
 
Darling did you know
I dream about life together
Knowing it will be forever
I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine
 
And darling when I say
“Til death do us part”
I mean it with all of my heart
Now and always faithful to you
 
Now I know you may have made mistakes
But there’s forgiveness, and a second chance
So wait for me, darling wait for me
Wait for me
Darling wait for me
     

When the Dream never dies

14 May

Deep in my heart was an ember of longing
Kept warm by the flame of desire
A dream held in secret I yearned to hold openly
Fanned by my hope into fire
It burned to such heat I could touch it no more
So I put it away and then closed up the door
Forever extinguishing all that would keep it alive
But the dream never died
The Lord has done this for me, he has looked on me kindly
He has heard all my cries
He has given me back what I laid at His feet
It must be God, when the dream never dies
Isn’t it just like the Lord to invite me
To put all my dreams in His hands
Forever releasing the grip that once held them
Forever surrendering my plans?
And then when He’s certain it’s not born of men
He calls for the fire to rekindle again
And He asks me to know in my heart what’s not seen with my eyes
So the dream never dies.

– from the song When the Dream Never Dies from musical Child of the Promise

Letting go and letting God

5 Apr

So i told myself I’d start writing more, right? And even if my last blog entry here was around five months ago, I HAVE been writing. Just haven’t been publishing it, that’s all 🙂 I’ve often kept my thoughts private and being comfortable with blogging is something I’m still working on. After all, it’s sooo public. 

But it was just Easter Sunday and I figured, why not start anew? Go beyond my comfort zone and maybe, just maybe, it will lead me somewhere else other than the bog I seem to be in now. I’ve always thought I’ve always let Him lead. But I know deep inside I’ve been holding back, refusing to let go of certain decisions and matters.

There’s something infinitely scary about allowing someone else to take the reins and lead your life, control freak that I am. It doesn’t help that I’m listening right now to Orff’s haunting Carmina Burana – O Fortuna, velut luna… The thought of trusting another to lead me somewhere unknown can make me go – “You’ve got to be kidding!”

What if it was all just a waste of time and didn’t lead to the accomplishment of any goal you’ve set out? Time isn’t something you can turn back. Once that minute has passed, you can’t wish for the same minute again. But I think it’s high time I really Let Go and Let God. I only hope I can possess the amount of faith needed to truly, truly make this happen.

Ok, so I’ve switched to Mozart’s more pleasant Piano Concerto No. 21. I need to be listening to something more relaxing.

Happy Easter!

Let’s get it started

26 Oct

I finally decided to start on something I’ve always wanted to do but somehow never really got around to, until now (despite a looming deadline!)  Create my own blog.

Finally. I’ve written a few notes in my Multiply and Facebook accounts but didn’t think of those much as blog platforms.

Now, writing has always been a cathartic activity and I’d like to think I come up with one or two bright ideas occasionally. So here I am. Sharing. That’s really all what a blog is, right? Sharing thoughts, experiences and ideas to unknown others who just might appreciate it 🙂 Setting up my blog’s look and changing elements here and there according to my liking really is quite interesting.

Blogging.  Let’s see where this will take me…